Lost and Disappearing
The body slides into the water, Sinks in the water, The water rises, There is music, The sound of music, Well over the permitted volume, Lost and disappearing, To the world, I close my eyes and sink, A bath, With perfumed flowers throughout, Odors reminiscent of desires, Passionate desires, Desires to lose myself in you, Desires for an irresistible passion, Doomed to feel this also in eternity, Damnation… Lost and disappearing, To the world, I close my eyes and sink, A bath, With perfumed flowers throughout, Odors reminiscent of desires, Passionate desires, Desires to lose myself in you, Desires for an irresistible passion, Doomed to feel this also in eternity, Damnation… I have wish list…
You have new ideas?! Typical, Prepare, aim and shoot new ideas! I also have an idea! Let’s go out a bit, You say: “Go out a bit?! What an idea!! Mine is better! We can do more, I want to give you some ideas, To put into action”, On the walls, You put erotic paintings, On the floor, Luxurious carpets, The paintings are really erotic! Music resonates exotic sounds, The atmosphere points to the sky! You say: “Go out a bit?! What an idea!! Mine is better! We can do more, I want to give you some ideas, To put into action”, You show me the Kamasutra and the idea…
Vampire of Emotions
Vampire of emotions, Emotions, You strip me, You take everything from me! I decorated my hair, Magnolias, violets, lilies, You messed up my hair with zeal, Your powerful hands, Make me delirious, Envelop me, You lay me on the floor, And then...
When you kiss me, I give hints, I want you to continue, You kiss me, When I stop, You grab my hair, Pull me to your mouth, In my free time, I with nothing to do, Think of your kisses, And the curse appears, This physical reaction!
tra-la-la-la-la-la-la, Hm?! Is my music annoying you? tra-la-la-la-la-la-la, Endure a little more!... I’m coming! tra-la-la-la-la-la-la, I’ll be right there! tra-la-la-la-la-la-la, I Heard you…! Endure a little more…! tra-la-la-la-la-la-la, Kiss my neck! Kiss me... Keep kissing me… Hum...I can hardly say... tra-la-la-la-la-la-la, Hum...
I’m Going to Be a Nun
You thought of me in your own way, You saw me in your own way, You liked me in your own way, No big story here, Thinking in my own way, It was zero plus zero, Thinking in my own way, And liking my own way, I like Him, I’m going to be a nun, Are you astonished?! I’m going to be a nun! I’m going to blink, To stop that look of astonishment, I’m going to be a nun! Please, Stop with that astonished look!
Mess Me Up
Help me to relax, Then find me something better, Pain and fury, I feel worse than you can imagine, Come and get me, We all must die one day, But I yell: Sh*t to death, Let´s mess around to some beautiful place!…
Death kills, Love loves, I want a world away from this world, Kiss me repeatedly, Between moans, Sadness is sad, What was lost, Doesn’t always returns, To indifference nothing matters, Desire desires quickly, Emptiness has nothing, The incalculable, Seems to have everything, Kiss me repeatedly, Between moans…
I’m going to be straight with you, Therefore this letter, I am in an O.G.K. situation, According to you, I'm just stressed out, Only God knows, How I’ll get out of this O.G.K. situation, I felt your threat of abandon, Where shall I go? Only God knows, I run away from you, Everything was a boat without oars, You took me to half half moons, You took me nowhere, You took me to things that I didn’t ask to exist, The void took control, You took me there, And to O.G.K. situations, Only God knows, How I’ll get out of this O.G.K. situation, Only God knows, Will you understand one gram, Of the weight of these written words? Will you understand even one milligram? One more O.G.K situation! Only God Knows! You thought of me as imperfect, You know, You are a cheap sloppy copy, Goodbye! Goodbye O.G.K situations, Do you know what love is? In you, There´s only lie, ego, pride and manipulation, I give you back to you! Go! If possible, against a wall!
I search for you
Yesterday I searched for you, In the wishes I made for my future, Today I search for you, Still in the expectations of the future, Tomorrow if I still search for you, I will have no faith in the future, I search for you… I search for you, The pursuit is long, Centuries, Centuries ago, By you I was found, By you I was loved, Early I was taken from you, On my grave, We vowed to return, I search for you, You exist in my heart, I search for you, This feeling is desperate, I search for you, The pursuit is long, When I see you, I will feel that I know you, I will feel… I will know… That is you…
My spirit wanders, Over a bonfire, I am loved by fire, Life! Divert me! Divert me to dream, My spirit continues to roam, I run, I Run, I don’t know where! I am loved by the unknown, Life! Divert me! Divert me to dream, My spirit does not rest, Over stones I am, In the midst of the ocean, I am loved by madness! Life! Divert me! Divert me to dream, The alarm clock rings, The spirit returns to the body, I return to life, I feel everything is crooked, I don’t feel loved by life, Life! Divert me! Divert me to dream…
We desire romance, Happiness, A university degree, A job, Money, We desire, We desire a lot, We desire everything in any age, Is number Thirteen, bad luck? How long will love last? How long will things last? Does bad luck exist? How long will love last? How long will things last? We fear the losses, Betrayals are losses, Distrusts are losses, Separations are losses, We grow up with the thinking habit, Of things being perfect, If only things are perfect! Is number Thirteen, bad luck? How long will love last? How long will things last? Does bad luck exist? How long will love last? How long will things last? We have beliefs and pleasures, We feel perturbed, Society tries to make our mind, With the perfect little life of theirs, They insist, Although they do not know, How long will love last, How long will things last, How long will their certainties last… They do not know, They know only what they know, And it´s their goal in life, To make me know only what they know, Do they know I won´t follow them?
You suffer, Unlocking the pain you need, If someone gets close, You attack, Handle pain differently, Be sincere! Say: “I have a problem, I don’t know if I want you to listen to me, Give me an advice, Or a big hug!”
Iron on Coals
With my feet, The bedroom wall, I try to push, In a big wooden bed, I am lying, “What do I think about sex?” –you ask, Iron on coals! Your skin burns me, More than iron on coals, I hear my heartbeat, I smile like a little devil, Without prayer, A little devil without prayer, You say you want to penetrate all of my pores, I hear my heartbeat, Everything in me is pure desire, But I see myself say to you: “My toes are watching you, Through torn socks, Uh...Uh...hello!”
IDs, I don’t have at midnight, At midnight, We turn off the alarms, After midnight, We steal love, In all parts of the body, My soft lips, Possess you, We become like, Sex and love without shame…
My desires, I’m not going to whisper, As if it could embarrass me, With you I’m who I want to be, With you I have what I want to have, With you…
Ways of Being
My way of being, I learned from no one, My way of being, May agree or not, With other ways of being, To some beings, I would call equal, Living our ideas, Is a way of being, Don’t take me to bed, I may not have strength after, To get up, Some ways of being, Are increased or decreased, By the way others see them, No way of being, Is more important, Just because it is the more acceptable way of being, Each way of being, Should let be, The other way of being, Don’t take me to bed, I may not have strength after, To get up, That lack of strength may come, From the lack of desire in me, To get up, To face the ways of being of the world, Don’t take me to bed, Take me to infinite love…
You can stop, Being interested quickly, For everything which lies in front of you, When only I interest you! You can take me, To learn new things, That will impress me, And maybe shock! You can drive, Opposite of me, You can melt down, Everything that guides my life, You can be intolerant with me, Even knifelike when, I don’t do everything you dream, At that moment! I like you so much, That I could appeal, “Oh…yes! Oh...yes! Fuck my whole life up! I’ll let you! Oh...yes! Fuck my whole life up! Oh...yes! Love me!”, You can be harmful, To my state of mind! Radioactive, even! “Oh…yes! Oh...yes! Fuck my whole life up! I’ll let you! Oh...yes! Fuck my whole life up! Oh...yes! Love me!”
I fall back, I fall! I started to search for you, Inside yourself! I started to search for you, Outside your physical body, And I finally found your real self, I fall back! Because everything, I had already changed to please you, Everything I had already changed, I hit high and low! I became bossy to myself! Just to please you! Where is the restroom? I have to vomit! I have to empty myself, Of my excesses! Where is the restroom? In a dreamland I was living, I loved to look at you, I watched you dreamingly, Without interruption, You were always in my mind, But obviously, I fell in reality, I fell on the ground, Like one who lands, In a burning airplane, Where is the restroom? I have to vomit! I have to empty myself, Of my excesses! Where is the restroom? Am I embarrassing you? Let me shout! Where is the restroom?
Nobody Climbed There
You are asking for forgiveness, Forgive and everything will be as before, Nobody can, No one climbed that high, Except God, You dare ask me for forgiveness, I am not the same person anymore, If you were my reason to live, Now I´m not so sure of that, Do I know you? Forgive and everything will be as before, Nobody can, No one climbed that high, Except God, You want forgiveness, But what do you really want? Do you feel alone? You never forget yourself, do you? You insist on asking for forgiveness, Your mistakes were annoying, terrible and a headache to me! You won´t change…
Pain Is felt before being understood, I don’t want to eat anything, I don’t want to drink anything, I don’t want to know anything, Nothing of love, Nothing of passion, Get out of my way, My path now, Is straight ahead, Here it is what life wants to say, About love, When you want to drink, Life will offer you vinegar, When you want to eat, Life will offer you rocks, When you want to know, Life will offer you emptiness, Get out of my way, My path now, Is straight ahead, Of course love, Is not so dramatic, Of course there are happy endings! But in any case... Get out of my way!
What Did You Dream?
The days are nights without moonlight, Days are days, Bound to a cross, Sorrow continues, Bound to places, Bound to memories, What is love? It was a dream, I woke up, “What did you dream? What did you dream?”, Eyes are staring, The cold shadows, I made a pit, There I put pain, I cover it so pain cannot be seen, I buried love ten thousand feet under me, But it is still alive, It keeps breathing, What is love? It was a dream, I woke up, “What did you dream? What did you dream?”
Naked and Disheveled
I locked the door with a key, The key I threw it away, Without looking, To some place else, I am, Naked and disheveled, In my room, A river flows, It’s breeze blurs the mirror of my image, I cannot see myself, I am, Naked and disheveled, Trapped in these feelings I am, Devoted to these feelings I am, Feelings that cannot be measured, weighed or seen, Because they are ghosts, They have no moderation! They are big! I´m fed up with them! This is not bad, But it could be so much better!
How am I? I´m fine! Full of illusions, I´m Ok! How am I? I´m fine! I love you, You love me, It’s all an illusion, In truth we do not know, We don’t know how to love, Illusions are what we have, He who says not to have them, Lives in the illusion, They call me deluded! Who are these people? Shitty people pretending not to have illusions? Or simply people deluded that they are not shitty? Calling me deluded is not nice! God likes to turn reality into illusion, And deluded dreams into reality, God likes to mock non deluded people…
The day to day is ordinary, Throws me down the stairs, My dreams become blank, No value I see, I drown in the everyday commonalities, The one that flees from utopia, My hair, Wild flowers, My palaces, Wild flowers, My visions, Wild flowers, goddess I am, The everyday mediocrities, That which makes of many a herd, That which has no utopia, Strangles me with its wires, The everyday mediocrities, Mimics the grandeur, Wearing a dust mask, For its mimics are made of dust, Dust, the substance which disappears in a bad, rainy day, Its mask falls before despair, misery and other doom days, The mimic of grandeur disappears, Only truth remains, Wild flowers…
To those who are dangerous, When we are already scared, We shout our outrage, We shout our tiredness! “NO way! You can’t fuc* with me! You will never ever fuc* me! I am impenetrable... Impenetrable! Choose another person or fuc* alone!”, To those who have a full safe, Full of opportunism and tricks, To those who do evil, To those who do nothing against evil, To those who do no evil nor good, With wicked charm they deny us wonderful things, We shout our certainty! “NO way! You can’t fuc* with me! You will never ever fuc* me! I am impenetrable... Impenetrable! Choose another person or fuc* alone!”, To those who push crowds in directions, That they themselves will not follow! To those with bad character! To those who use perfume on the outside, In the form of beautiful words, To hide their stink! To those who destroy truth! To those who say, We have no proper manners! We shout in a good proper manner, Loud and clear! “You can’t fu*k with me! You will never ever fuck me! I am impenetrable... Impenetrable! Choose another person or fuc* alone!”
I am a witch, I predict! Always together! We will be! My long hair I wrap around you! I am a bandit! I possess you illegally!
You Want Me
Don’t see me as a stranger, I am part of you, I am you, I want you…
Why did I not see you like I see you now?! Am I smarter now? Shall I search for a new love? Shall I date around? How many mismatches, Before love happens? Searching again! For a new love! Bellissimo! This time with less enthusiasm, Searching again! For a new love! Being found, I would prefer, For example, Your car, Crashing into mine! Destiny!
Just a Man
You are just a man, Just a man who kisses ok, You no longer despair me, Your absence does not despair me, Your absence is now a habit, Which caused me to lose the habit of despairing for you, Now in no way do you make me despair, Now you are just a man…
You drink the blood, Of my soul, Meanwhile, You don’t feed me, Nor let me feed myself, I can’t say no to you, You throw me to the floor, You enslave me, From your hand, Comes darkness, My blood I poisoned, Being that you feed yourself from it, You killed me, My blood I poisoned, Being that you feed yourself from it, I will kill you…
I still feel a little like yesterday, I am ok, But not by love’s choice, I am fine, Because I decided to be so, Love, Echoes of the word love I receive, My body still remembers you, Actually everything is bad, It feels so bad and so wrong, But I am ok, I feel good, That no one, Should interfere with the decision, Of my being good, No one should interfere with that! Because... watch out! I have high heeled boots, Steel toed boots, Watch out... I can injure... Addicted to love… Go to hell!
Losing me the way you lost me, Only truly losers like you, Would undervalue me, And let me go, You lost me the same way, That you lose in life, Thoughtlessly, You laugh while you are losing, You are a loser, With a capacity for losing, You laugh while you are losing, I'm glad you let me go away, For those who live with losers, Also are transformed into losers, I was being sucked by your ungrateful soul, You made me feel constantly like a loser, Losing you, Was gaining life…
Darkness went to the night, Hasn´t gone yet, Until it does, Love is hidden, The moon doesn´t shed light upon the clouds, But Hope becomes stubborn and wants to live, And pearls roll without destiny, If it´s true that destiny exists, Pearls roll without destiny, I make a statue, Of volcano ashes, Mixed with lava, It’s man, And pearls roll without destiny, Just like a hidden love, Pearls are rolling… lost and free…
Lightening, Thunder, Gale winds, Hurricanes, All in the ocean, I am the ocean, Peaceful I was, The climate changed, An ocean of storms I became, Grandiose-splendid-magnificent-wonderful-superb projects, Projects of happiness destroyed, To forget how destroyed I am, A tempest I became, An ocean of storms I became, I felt fear, Whirlpools of fear, Made of me this turmoil, In which everything will change...
Convince yourself that, My itch, Is simply in one foot nowhere else! Itch... simply in one foot! In no other part am I itchy! So... don’t try to take my itch, To where it doesn’t exist! Stop that! There is no other itchy part in my body besides my foot! Your itchy desires…
My Best Lover
I let my hair down, I grab the champagne, I let myself go, I hold my best lover, Untiring as before, I give myself to him in happiness, I give myself to him in sadness, I like him, I love him, I love how he softens me, I love how he dissipates my aggressiveness after a bad day, My best lover, Us two, At once, All the barriers, In every way we break, Forbidden is to belong to someone else, Forbidden is to belong to someone else, My best lover, My car…
I’m fed up with complications, There are many complicated people, But its funny, I seem to be the only one, Who is fed up with it, It’s funny, I’m going in zigzags, Trying to run, From complicated people, And from complicated jokes, And you my love, Just give me more complications, With you I also go in zigzags, I need to walk in a straight line…
When I met you, With sad memories of another past I was, Looking to get out of my state of mind, Loving you I wanted, To go through life without be hurting again, I wanted, But you were there! You were there to give me in the future, Again a sad past to remember, Better to have a crazy life without you, Rather than with you! Since abnormally crazy you make me act!! This is too much! It´s getting worse! Aha, aha, aha... This is awesome! Let me laugh! Let me laugh!
If you find me around, Don’t give me those eyes, I'd rather see you pretend you don´t know me, A life of faking it, You can take it, So take this, Pretend you don’t know me, This is not me pretending, This is my punch, My punch against you great pretender! An image you pretended, So good was I in believing what I saw, Everything in you interested me, Later I understood, For you appearance is everything, You simply projected an image, Inside you are empty, You pretend, Because you are empty, A life of faking it, You can take it, So take this, Pretend you don’t know me, This is not me pretending, This is my punch, My punch against you great pretender! You are a make-believer! Knowing you was not enough to turn me into a faker like you! You eat chicken but say you eat lobster with caviar... Poor thing!
Love is frequently used, By fools, To make of others fools, By those morons, We are led to think, That love is foolish, When one thinks that love, Will last forever, One finds a jerk, That shows us, That only foolishness exists in love, And foolishness is all there is, Love is frequently used, By fools, To make of others fools, I say no to you!
You Did Not
“For what the body, If not to wear it out?!” you would say, You did not say, But to love you didn’t want, You called this your freedom, You did not say, Because if you had said, I would have said, Fu*k you! Go to hell! I’m going to the disco!
One of Us
I was certain, One day, One of us, Would go, Several times in a row, I said that I would go, When I said such, Lonely I felt, But you deserve to be alone, Alone on an far-off deserted island, Alone with yourself, Bye! Hasta la vista!
This song, Speaks of blows to the heart, Speaks of love, Speaks of giving, And taking blows, This is not the first time, That love is like this, Love will always be like this, Love hurts, Like punching a wall, I bleed, Without love I cannot live, Without giving and receiving blows, Blows make me feel alive, But that´s so wrong, Punches are not kisses, The enlightened don’t understand anything about punches, I want to be an enlightened one, Only kisses, peace, love and birds singing!
Are you sure about that? So say it, I promise to be, To be even more, More interested, In what you’re going to say, Say it! You want to fight my failures?! Ah! I see, My achievements are never quite enough for you, are they? You have to say it! You have to yell! My choices must be amended, adjusted, corrected and reviewed! You’re speaking of some choice of mine or all of them? Try to change me if you can! You mean you have a vision?! A strategic vision for my future?! Say it! Don’t forget what you’re about to say, Because right after, You’re going to pay me a vacation!
I walk in the rain, I am out of control, Without noticing my clothes are wet, My skin is coated in water, My eyes are saturated with water, You erase the many sorrows, When you kiss me, But this time I know that... This won’t do! I’m at the wheel, I am out of control, Without noticing, I drive madly, I drive for hours, It’s night, You erase the many sorrows, When you kiss me, But this time I know that... This won’t do! I stop on a road, I don’t know if it is familiar, I think I don’t want you anymore, But I despair, Because I still want you, I don’t understand myself! Maybe I have a brain sickness! No worries, it will heal itself!
You’re starting to annoy me… you’re starting to annoy me... yes… are you surprised? Oh! Please, do not sulk!
Don’t say that I suffer for you and I like it! Bastard!
You hid behind the absence of response, I felt it insufficient, I asked you, I asked for and didn’t get, You don’t want to hurt with words, You prefer your attitude?! I´ve got your number! Who doesn't know you yet, should stay with you!
I am tired, I sleep, I sleep, So as not to think, In these weeks of nothingness, But sleep seems like daytime noises, I can´t sleep, Weeks have passed! What will the weeks give me? My hope was always hopeless, My hope could do nothing, To change you for better, You always kept equal to yourself, My hope always lost, I must change hope’s name right now! From now on it will be called “Memory Erase”! Whoa! Everything feels so much better now! What a relief!
I sit on the sand, I look at the sun, At night I am a mermaid in the moonlight, I sing, I sing to the moonlight, Waiting in a corner of life, Waiting for magical worlds to appear to me…
The great depth of the void, I have nothing to say to you, All passions are a prison, Most of the times, One on the inside, The other on the outside, Now I´m on the outside, I wish you to meet the void, Cry out loud as much as you can, The void has a great depth, No one will hear you…